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picture is of my mother's 1st cousin Louise who was buried today. She is half of what family called "The twins." Her twin sister predeceased her. I didn't know Louise well. I do know she was extremely intelligent, orderly, and religious, but also curious, musical, and mischievous. She died of Alzheimer's just as my mother did. It was a lovely graveside memorial where, when people were asked to speak, 6 or so did without hesitation. I guess I was most moved though by one of her daughters who introduced herself as her mother's caregiver. All Louise's family, were sad, of course, but this lady was hurting. I thought of the time immediately after my mother's death. Caregivers live in a different world than anyone else and their grief is complex and deep. When it is over, it takes a long time to move on from that world and into one you can share with the living. It's been 7 years since Mom died and I am still on alert, still struggle to sleep past the time in the morning I arose to tend to her no matter what time or if I got to bed.</p><p><br></p><p>Caring for my mother was so unbearably stressful and all consuming that I was sure it was going to kill me. If I imagined her death, I would have imagined grief, but also relief. What I experienced though, was crippling grief. Caring for her was so involved, I lived it day and night, no escape. Everything Mom lost, I had to make up for. No days off. Sleep was with one eye open. Mom had become my entire life. As my beloved cousin Charlie said at Mom's graveside where I was struggling, "Your Mom was your every everything." After years of this intensity, who was I? What happens after I get a little rest? When will everyone else stop seeming so foreign to me?</p><p><br></p><p>I wanted to talk with Louise's caregiver to share with her and offer her my understanding, but before I could, I had to leave for an appointment.</p>