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By valliegirl +13 in the Style of Restless Heart
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I am the girl who tries to smile all the time. I am the girl who says everything is fine while the world falls apart around her. I am the girl who always tries to be strong. It's in my name. Valerie means strong. Being vulnerable and letting someone else in are things that are really difficult for me. Music has always been my main emotional outlet. A lot of what I sing is extremely personal for me, whether it be about ancient wounds or something extremely raw. Sometimes, it's multiple things at the same time. If you listen to me regularly here, you've already seen sides of me that I don't show to the majority of people in my life. It is difficult for me to sing in front of other people. It is a vulnerable moment. Each song is a part of my soul. When it is ignored or taken for granted, it hurts. I was told, once upon a time, not to assume that I am welcome. If someone wants me around, they will make that clear by actively inviting me into their life. But unless I receive an invitation, no matter how much I may want, I have a very difficult time initiating a connection with another person. If I am abandoned by a person, or if someone hurts me, it is up to that individual to initiate the mending process of that friendship. I am capable of unconditional love, forgiveness, and repair of a relationship that was broken, but I cannot take the first step. And, to be honest, I don't think I should. If a person tells me they do not want me around, it really should not my place to go chasing after them, begging them to care about me. If they want me to be in their life, they know how to find me. So, very often, I'm the girl who cries alone, because she doesn't want to bother anyone else with her issues and troubles, both because she doesn't want to be a burden, and because she doubts anyone would care. Because, so often, no one did. But she wants this song to be about her. So, she sings it to herself.